Ramblings from the keyboard of NavinK

Saturday, October 11, 2008

37 weeks ...

My wife is 37 weeks pregnant. This is going to be our first child and we are nervously excited!

The more emotionally open parents in our community tell us with joyful self-disclosure that we are going to experience a complete transformation of our lives. Something about a whole new set of wavelengths suddenly becoming visible. I am looking forward to it ... but not without a whole lot of introspection (of course!!).

Laden with a mind that does not like to switch off and can't tell the difference between when its valuable to think about something and when its not, I am finding the waiting to be quite the experience. Thinking about the coming change is largely useless ... but my idle cycles love to go meandering as I try and figure out whether I have any hope of being a decent parent and what I need to do to try. I find that I have a heightened awareness of the neuroses of my family. I am watching with horror at the way the human race has collectively consumed itself into a recession. And don't get me started on sustainability ... why aren't we more het up about how willfully ignorant our community is on what it can do to turn the tide.

This will not do - I feel a sense of failure - I have not been able to fix the world in time for the arrival of our little one.

But when I do switch off my mind, or rise above the chatter to be in the present a bit more ... I am delighted at how wonderful things are for us - how privileged we are to live the life we do - and how happy my lovely wife is as she anticipates the arrival of our child. Its just amazing to see that she is ready to be a mother - like magic, she is fully equipped to protect and nurture her little one with unconditional love.

What a ride ... :-)

Thursday, October 9, 2008

So I haven't been writing for a good while ...

... and should do something about it.

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